I Haven’t Decided
Last night when I came home I was thinking, “I hate this job”. My new job, of course. Unemployment was looking appealing to me, but of course I can’t afford that – I haven’t even gotten my first paycheque yet for crying out loud.
Tonight I didn’t feel quite as bad about the job. I am trying to be my usual open-minded self. Never mind the anal stuff and what bugs me and how I rant and rave… I’m open minded. Yes, I am.
So I haven’t quite made up my mind. Some part of me still feels like I hate the new job, but another part of me is saying, “hey wait, stupid, you’ve only been there 2 weeks, it’ll get better”.
I do think that a few people are feeling comfortable with me there. I do think that they believe in my capabilities. But I do feel that the whole company is really disorganized and it’s making me disorganized in trying to do things ‘their way’.
Maybe we can overcome that stuff and get things moving in a better direction, but until that happens, I guess I’ll probably feel as I do now.
One other thing that bothers me is that I work with all women. That’s not what bothers me, what bothers me about it is that they’re all these touchy-feely women who speak from the heart about truth and justice and the Canadian way, and pain and hurt and real girly-girl kinds of things.
I can somewhat deal with that, but it’s very tough for me to listen to people going on and on and on about something when I asked them a yes or no question. I guess I’d better hope that they never find my blog 
Am I exaggerating? Maybe. Maybe not. It certainly feels like it’s the truth though. Maybe it will help me become a better, more spiritual, more in tune with my girly side kinda woman. Maybe it won’t and I’ll just feel impatient all the time.
Time will tell. Did you ever have a job that bugged you that soon after you started? I think this is a first for me.
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Ack, I know all about the all-female workplace. I used to work for a foundation that only had about two male employees, so it was Estrogen Central in the office. What a nightmare 
I’ve always gotten along better with men than women, anyway. Which is probably why I’m a programmer, which is still very much a male field.
I think you will be fine. I always had a hard time too to adjust to a new job. Everything is new, you have your own ideas how to do do stuff and so on…Just give a at least another month and see where it is going 
Arrgh – I hate all female workplaces – it starts out ok – then it goes all catty! I’d rather work with men!
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is the new 30. I want the world to close their mouths when they’re eating or chewing gum. If they don’t, I want to elbow them in the face.
My first real job, working at the same factory as my father. I had just gotten out of high school and it was a complete and utter system shock. I wanted to go home by the first coffee break. But I stuck it out, cause I needed the money for college. Give it a little more time to see if you’ll like it.