We’re also halfway through 2013

Posted on Thursday, May. 16, 2013 by jafer

For some reason, I hardly ever think about doing anything on this website (or any other websites I also have). I suppose I’m never remembering that I’ve got such a interesting things to write about *hmmmm*.

When I think of my last post (around my last birthday), I was telling you that they were telling me that I was going to stop having chemo (after a whole year of it), and that since it didn’t do anything for me, I guess I was perfectly happy to quit that stuff.

Bad thing about that was that after a couple more MRI’s in 2013, after a few months they told me that I had more brain cancer added to my existing bunch. So guess who had to get back into a stronger version of chemo again? Let me guess. I guess my ‘new’ version of chemo may be them saying that this bunch of chemo will take care of the new cancer, unlike the older version that it hadn’t worked for. Now I’ll wait for a couple of months for another MRI to see whether this chemo will do something.

smalltattoo-optInstead of giving a shit about all of it, I decided that I’d have a tattoo. Yes, a tattoo that I had put onto my back, right below the scar where they operated on to remove the lung cancer where I had the bottom of my lung right side. For some reason, even though it’s been about a month for the tattoo, I also started thinking that maybe I’ll add a Sagittarius tattoo added below that tattoo, since the Sagittarius archer would be shooting the ‘F___ Cancer’ tattoo idea. I dunnno, I may or may not do this, but for sure it would at least find it amusing to do that.

Anyway, I’m gonna stop posting anything, more because I’m starving and need some breakfast. I woke up around 6:00am and it’s past 9:00am, so I won’t mention how much my stomach is growling looking for some food. Maybe I’ll write about something interesting. Ok, maybe life is not overly interesting.

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My Birthday on Thursday

Posted on Monday, Dec. 17, 2012 by jafer

Yes, boys and girls, Thursday, December 20th, 2012 will be my birthday and I’ll turn 56 years old. The bad thing about these ages is that when I used to be 54, I’d backwards it and say 45. But I couldn’t do that at 55 since they stay the same, and for sure I won’t be doing it at 56, cuz that would make it 65. So the aging thing is not giving me a good lying about my age opportunity. I guess the bad thing too is that I probably now look my age – kinda depressing since I used to look younger than my age.

Aside from that, Christmas is coming up and I’m buying nothing for anyone. Mostly my reason is because throughout the year I end up buying all kinds of things for all kinds of people, so because there’s no reason for me to be buying for them, I end up saying, ‘ok, that’s your Christmas present’. Too bad some people get a bunch more stuff than other people, but I guess they should be happy they got anything for free for no reason.

Today I had my computer guy come over because I had him installed Windows 8 and reformat my computer since it was running slowly. However, in that time Windows 8 seems to have disappeared at times and put me back at Windows 7. For some reason there’s a computer issue happening and I don’t know why. So this time he’s told me what to do if it happens yet again, so he doesn’t have to come over and fix me up. I’m just hoping that it doesn’t happen again – cuz WyTF does it happen?

Anyway, that’s it for me. At the end of this month I finish my chemo after a year of being on chemo. I guess we’ll find out what happens when I’m not on chemo. Kind of a scary thought to me, but I’m hoping at the very least that my body (and brain) feel better than they did on all the drugs. Please, please, please, let me feel good next year regardless of brain cancer and I’ll take that as my birthday present :razz:

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Why Not Write Every 6 Months?

Posted on Monday, Jun. 25, 2012 by jafer

Yes it’s almost 6 months since I wrote anything here. I can only say that the reason is mostly because I’m not posting a lot anywhere (except Facebook or Twitter), not because I have nothing to say.

If you want the latest news about my brain cancer, it is as follows: I’m now on chemo every day since they had switched me to a high level for one week a month and it didn’t do anything. So they changed it to a lower level, but every day, and when I went in last time they said there was a change, they said that the cancer in one spot was down about 20% *woohoo!*.

The only bad thing is that I also ended up in the hospital about a month ago and then found out that I now also have lung cancer. Thanks body for switching me around a bit, wouldn’t wanna get stuck with just a boring brain cancer when I could get more in a totally different spot.

Right now I’m going to different hospitals for different tests. I guess that’s where they’ll find out what they’ll be doing with me next. What I found out was that if it was only Level 1, I’d only have to have surgery, Level 2, surgery and chemo, Level 3, surgery, chemo and radiation.

I did say to them, “since I’m already on chemo for the brain cancer, I guess I wouldn’t have to be on chemo for lung cancer”, but they told me that, ‘yes, it’s a different chemo’ so I’d have to be on both. How exciting can life get?

So my final testing in lung cancer is this week, down at the hospital with some bronchial thing going down my throat. I guess it’ll be at least another week before they make an appointment with me to tell me what the results are and what I’ll be having to do for that one. As far as I know I just continue my brain cancer pills every hour in the evening.

Do I feel good? I find myself feeling more tired. I actually had a nap during the day yesterday. I allowed it and I usually don’t allow that stuff cuz I want to wait for bedtime, but yesterday (and today) I’ve been feeling so tired, almost as if things are taking over my eyes to shut them off. Too bad my appointment this week takes place at 7:30 a.m. – that means I’ll only have to wake about by 6:00 a.m. if I don’t want a shower.

I just want things to feel more normal so I can stop even thinking about this stuff. And I hope they were telling reality when they said death in this is usually during a coma or happens after sleep.

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